A Dissertation Submitted to
Faculty of Education, Tribhuvan University,Nepal
In partial fulfillment of  requirements of
the degree of  Master of Philosophy inEducation
January 2011

AN ABSTRACT OF THE DISSERTATION OF  Love Kumar Joshi for the degree of Master of Philosophy in Education Presented on: 17 April 2011.

Prof. Bidya Nath Koirala, Ph.D., Dissertation Supervisor

The study portrays my extremely heartfelt experience of grieving death and dying rituals of my loved son-Rose. In fact, one should not live killing the heart (Shkya, 2008, p. 8). This grief research points to isolation and traumatic circumstances of the grievers (the family) face.

Evocative auto ethnography is the method that I used. The writing is bogies of journey to self.This thesis has utilized the theoretical constructs of symbolic interaction and  evocative auto ethnography as forms of self- enquiry; revealing how I come to make sense of my lived experience in dealing with the loss of a loved one. I drew heavily upon personal journals, academic papers, and the religious books such as; The Geeta; The Garuda Purana; The Shiva Maha Puranam; Srimad Bhagawat Maha Puran and The Vedas. Grief epics-Muna Madan and Gauri; dialogical discourse with the pundits; hearsays; newspaper clippings and cultural Sa Paru etc. are used  as field notes in order to construct narratives dealing.

My findings showed that grief brings both positive and negative  transformation in life.

However, I am in favor of positive ones. In addition, the implication to education is that griefs literatures reduce pain and help people live for others life as well. In my case, I have accepted “writing as a therapy (James W. Pennebaker, 1990).”

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